Oh. My. Goodness.

I am listening to the President speak on our debt right now.  And since I try to avoid politics on fb, I had to come here.

Does anyone actually believe this man when he speaks?  I can hardly take listening to him.  His slamming of the GOP for their proposed budget cuts.  The twisted way he describes these cuts, to which an uneducated listener would probably become enraged at the GOP over.  His talking about how the GOP will socially change America as we know it.  Is he seriously trying to make us think he believes in fiscal responsibility?  He who added more to our national debt in 19 months than all presidents Washington through Reagan, combined.  And then he outsources everything to congress so he can lay the blame on them. 

Ummm.  You're not believing this, right America? This is the rhetoric he used during his election campaign.  Change!  Except people weren't really listening.  This president is a socialist and what he meant by change was social change.    His past, his mentors, his church, his friends, his advisors and czars all prove it.  What's the saying?  If it walks like a duck, talks like a duck, then it's a duck.  This man wants to redistribute the wealth in this country.  It's not about health care and his deep desire to care for people.  Take a look at his financial records.  They're public knowledge.  Don't you think that a man who cared that much about caring for people would donate of his own money to help?  Prior to his campaign, during which he ramped up his donations, he gave $1,050 in a year.  One thousand fifty dollars.  Wow.  There is a giving heart.  That's the problem with socialists.  They want everyone else to give but don't want to sacrifice themselves.

Then he starts in on tax cuts.  And how it's ridiculous to cut taxes for the wealthy.  Really?  You can't figure this one out, Obama?  Who creates jobs?  Not the poor.  Not the lower middle class.  Small business owners do.  The top wealthiest in the country do.  They spend money.  They also order products for their businesses which in turn spur more jobs- plastics, metals, glass, food, electronics, etc.

And then energy.  He personally has said he wants energy to skyrocket.  His own appointed energy secretary says we have to find a way to bring gas prices up to the rate of Europe in order to force the country to find other means of energy.  What?  We have plenty of means of energy here!  Drill you fool. 

I haven't even touched his social agendas- abortion, marriage, forced volunteerism.  Or international policies- turning our back on Israel and England.  Strange choices like encouraging people to revolt in Egypt (the defenders of Israel in the middle east) where the leader has been a traditional friend to the US, he has done bad things yes, however he has also been an ally.  Then we hastily send planes into Libya.  What is going on? 

Or what about his condescending and demeaning remarks.  Laughing at people.  Telling one man that if he's going to complain about gas prices it's his own fault for "hee hee, driving his big suv or his monster truck."  Then the man told Obama he had 10 children.  To which Obama pauses and says "Really?  You have 10 kids?  Well... well, you need one of those hybrid vans."  Uuuuhh, you mean the ones you can only get in Japan, Mr. President?  Great answer.  This is America.  We do what we want.  We have choices.  And we should not be punished for excerising our freedom.  So embarrassing to have that behavior from our president. 

I'm so disheartened.  I don't see how we could possibly withstand another four years with these horrible policies.    Is he truly out to just destroy us?  In the latest poll out today 69% of Americans say the country is on the wrong track.  I agree.  And the track that he has us on is not only scary, but down right puzzling.

I thought this was going to help me feel better.  It didn't. 

Wake up America.  What we need is morals.  Fiscal responsibility.  Smaller government.  Get rid of entitlements.  Someone willing to do the hard things and a country willing to sacrifice. 

I love my country.  Where has there ever been such prosperity, such beauty, such freedom all in one land?  These are all blessings from the Lord Almighty.  Without His hand upon us, we will not stand.

Hi, my name is Stephanie

And I have a problem with authority. 

Mmmmhmmm

Don't you love when your Costco check comes?  You push out of your head all the money you had to spend to get that Costco check.  You read how it says "redeemable only at Costco" and are so happy because that means you HAVE to spend it at Costco.

Visions of jalapeno artichoke dip, crab legs, and lots of wine dance in your head.

And then hubby comes home and says "Oh good, got the membership fee and diapers and wipes covered with that."  And you just say "Mmmhmmm."

Darn.

Flu Poetry

Flu  Flu  Flu

You make me feel like p** (I just can't bring myself to write that on my blog:))

I don't know what to do
 when I have the flu

The house is trashed

Hopes of dinner are dashed

I hate you flu
of that I am unabashed



Can you believe this is what this blog has come to?

And then He does THAT

Follow up.
I 'taught' again last night.  I sat in the parking lot before I went in and prayed a very specific prayer.  I asked that I would be able to be me, and that I would glorify Him in my teaching. 
I am blown away by what followed that prayer.
I was able to interact with my 'students' easily, like I would on a regular basis.  I didn't worry about my wording so much and just had fun with it.  The class went really really well.  And it was fun.  In the middle of it I was thinking "Whoa.  What is this?  What is going on?  Thank you, Lord!" 
I am still thinking "What was that?",  with an added "Please let that keep happening!"
It also never ceases to amaze me, how the kind words of friends come at just the right moments, and the encouragement the Lord shows me through them. 

I'm a Baby

Warning: this is a pity party and a place for me to spew all of the yuck that I have inside right now.  You do not need to read it or comment on it.  It just had to be done.

I've started 'teaching' (believe me, I use that term as loosely as possible) yoga at my local studio two nights a week.  And... I want to quit. 

All I can think about all day everyday are these two classes.  I'm nauseous for most of the day, anxious, and filled with the thought "I can't do this.  Why am I doing this?"  All over teaching yoga.  Oh my word, what a baby.  I guess I just didn't realize how hard this was going to be for me.  I would imagine for some people it's really easy and comes naturally.  And I really thought it was going to be that way for me too.  That was a gross misjudgement on my part. 

Being good at yoga does not mean being a good teacher.

I'm up there, and I forget when we're supposed to be inhaling and when we're supposed to be exhaling, which then shatters my spirit and silences me.  I feel like they don't like my flow and then I change it up which has me deviating from my plan, and deviating from the plan is not good.  I don't feel like I can be myself because I'm on this runaway train of a class that I can't slow down.  I look out at the faces in my class and think "Oh my goodness, they are hating this.  They hate this flow and wish it would stop.  Oh man, they think I'm incompetent and HOW can she not come up with something better than this.  Great, I can't remember if we're supposed to be inhaling or exhaling.  Ugh, I forgot where I'm at.  Why am I doing this?  I shouldn't be doing this.  I have no business being up here.  I'm going to throw up.  How can I get out of this?"
Yeah, that's about right.  And all in the span of a few minutes.  

Yes, I know that I've only taught a handful of classes.  And yes, I've thought about how I haven't been able to take a lot of classes due to teacher training and the general out of control pace of my life right now.  But knowing those things doesn't make you feel better when you feel like you just gypped someone out of $15. 

I think that I need to just go teach gym yoga for a while so I don't have to feel guilty and so I can just LEARN what I'm doing.  But now I'm committed at this studio.  Which is making me feel like I need to be committed.

I know.  I'm a baby. 

Oh boy

I have all three kids home today.  Alyssa is sick, and I'm suspecting flu.  And Holland I suspect, in typical Holland fashion,  just tagged along for the ride.

I am now terrified of summer.

Time to start getting creative about what is going to occupy these three for three months. 

And now maybe you're scared too.  I'll post what I come up with and maybe we will be able to survive together.